just plain me

Goodbye to love??

2012-01-29T02:02:00.004+08:00

I think I'm confused. I really don't know what i am feeling right now. Here's the story, for almost a year now I've been thinking about a particular guy, for some reasons and some of them is that one of my friend has a feelings for him. Even at work she showed how much she love him by holding his hands and kissing him on the cheeks!! Now how is that? Unprofessional? I really don't know, maybe when it comes to love, you just don't mind what others think or say. Back to i was saying, I've been observing him for all those months and trying to decipher what my friend really likes about him, and later did i know my super closest friends has a feeling for him too (well that was before). So, for almost a year i found out why most girls have have feelings for him. He is really a gentleman, kind hearted, and respectful but even so he has some bad side of him too that when i imagine it, i cant help myself but laugh. He is like a kid in a mature kind of way (i think you get what i mean). And just lately I've found put that he already resigned from the institution and he is flying away to a very far place.

When I've heard about his resignation, i really don't know that its that instant or maybe he just didn't want to spread it. Even so he is going to some place and i cant help myself believing that i can't see him anymore. His super laughing out laud i will surely miss. The way he teases me of how big my appetite is and how i miss the way i act when I'm around him, not totally looking at him, how weird is that?? What is really about this feeling of mine is when i know that he is leaving, a song immediately pop up to my mind; and that is "goodbye to love by the carpenters". That is really wierd. I dont even have a slightiest feelings for him, i guess.

Oh, well, what the pig! Im still confused over this. So, i guess this would be "good bye to love" then. Arrrggh!! What the pig!!

Fairy tale dreams

2012-01-25T20:46:00.003+08:00

From bed time stories down to the now wonderfully made fairy tale movies, its been and always had been my wish that somehow my life would be like from the fairy tale stories. Ive been living my life for over twenty-two years and yet my fairy tale seems never fades. From the prince charming that someday sweep my feet away down to the ever lasting kiss, all those things ive been wishing for.

In this modern world and mind, those fairy tale dreams of mine is impossible to find. When some doesnt believe in a love that last forever. And honestly, i myself believed that it is really impossible for the reason that the fair maiden always have been has the right body, the right features fit for a princes that could catch anyones attention, even a wicked witch. Even in the movies and the novels that ive read, its always the same, the prince always fall for the girl that has beauty and its sad to say i dont have them.

Even all those negative vibes ive had for a fairy tale dreams im still amd always be waiting for the prince charming who would sweep my feet someday.

cant hurry love...♪♫♪♫

2011-11-28T02:51:00.000+08:00

this was a song sang by phil collins in the past. And up until now, this is my theme song in terms of falling inlove. You really cant hurry lovee and most of all, you cant push love. Love does not need to be said but it should be felt. you cant really know love when you yourself believe that love is just a game. Nothing more nothing less.

Ive just said this because of my recent experience. There was just this guy who said that he wants to court me. Well, as a girl, i thought that courting doesnt need a permission from a girl. It should be felt. for me asking permission is one way of asking some assurance from the other. And love is not about assurances but its about taking risk. He said that i was immature in all my aspects in life, however i told him if he really does have some feelings to me, he should be mature enough to accept my immaturity. He also asked me for second chance, i said to me: second chance is not for me to tell him, but its up for him to prove that he really deserve a second chance. He said that it was easy for me to tell all those negative words. Yes its easy for me, for the fact that, first, i dont have any feelings for me because i know his feelings for me is not real, and lastly, he was not that all sincere, serious and consistent.

Sincerity, seriousness and consistency is one way of winning the girls hurt. Without those three, then you are just playing with the girls emotion and feelings. Loving and liking is a very different word. Just as like as respect and assurance.

To all the guys out there, i do hope that you have those three characteristics in courting a girl.

bucket list!

2011-11-02T21:45:00.003+08:00

for the past week I've been thinking about my past and what would happen in my future. random thoughts quickly rushing through my mind. and then it hits me, i wanted to do some risk in my life before i lay my self to rest. so i've created my bucket list. although it did not reach to a hundred what-to-do-before-i-die yet but i already has something in mind on where would i start.

my mind is really fixed on going to somewhere else without companion, just me. i really wanted to do some adventure in my life for the reason that up to this date i cant really remember when did i became adventurous or it is solely because i did not do any. in this trip on mine, i want to meet some new found friends. and the main reason why wanted to go in this place because i really want to know who i am..

i am really praying that this first list in my bucket list will be granted by next year.. fingers crossed!!

playing song writer..

2011-10-30T01:03:00.006+08:00

it was late afternoon last oct. 27, 2011, when i started to pick up my guitar agian and started to play. when i thought came to mind while listening to one of my favorite song which is "marry your daughter by brian mcknight. i startted playing the notes and singing the song. then finally i've decided to compose a song that is a girl version or the reply of the song. it was not that good but i've enjoyed singning my lyrics with the melody of the song. so i want you to share my lyrics to you, i know its amature or rubbish, but it brings fulfillment and happines to my heart. so this is it.

Dad, im a bit nervous
'bout hes being here today
Still not real sure what hes going to say
So stay with me please
If hes taking too much of the time
He opened the box of ring and say to me
youre my everything and all that i know is
It would be such a relief if you would say yes to me and being my side
And sir, im very hoping that i...

Can marry your daughter, and make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that i love for the rest of mylife
And give her the best of me till the day that i die, yeah
Im gonna marry your princess and make her my queen
Shell be the most beautiful bride that ive ever seen
I cant wait to smile
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that i marry your daughter

Hes been here every step
Dad,since the day that we met
Im scared to death dad, oh what you think should i do and say to him
And dont you ere worry about him treating me bad
Hed got most of his vows done so far
He gave me the most og his life
And till death do we part
Theres no doubt in my mind
Its time, im ready to say
I swear to you with all of my heart

Im gonna marry this man
And make him spouse
I want him to be the only man that i love for the rest of my life
And give him the best of me till the day that i die, yeaj
Im gonna marry this prince, and make him my king
He'll be the most wonderful groom that ive ever seen
I cant wait to smile
When i walk down the aisle
On the arms of you father
On the day that i marry this man

The first time i saw him, i swear i knew that id say i do...

Im gonna marry this man, and make him my spouse
I want him to be the only man that i love for the rest of my life
And give him the best of me till the day that i die, yeah
Im gonna marry this prince, and make him my king
He'll be the most wonderful groom that ive ever seen
I cant wait to smile
When i walk down the aisle
On the arms of you father
On the day that id marry this man..

i hope you enjoyed my lyrics. i also hoped that my skills will enhanced.. ★

start of something new

2011-10-12T22:17:00.003+08:00

tonight is a very nice evening, the moon glares at you at its best accompanied by the wind touching your skin so smoothly. its a very nice evening where you can relive the moments of your happiest day.

so many things had happened in the past that i really want to forget. with all the hurts and pain ive been through, it is really wise to forget it. unfortunately i cant, because even though its so ugly, this made me the way i am. i tried to be more optimistic, telling my self to be positive and that there is always a rainbow after the rain.

in my recent experience, being optimistic is not a good medicine for "forgetting the past and learn from the experience" because it made my confidence super down and low that it dug up to the ends of the earth.

the positive is that, i still have friends where i can somehow speak to them my feelings. but not all of them. for the reason that some things in my life are not intended to anybody. its just for my self and i only.

upon writing this, i realized that my heart is so clogged up and i am waiting for the wrong reasons of my life. i guess waiting is a bad think and thinking too much is worst. so, for noe, i will try hard to not thinking about what life aheads and start living for today.

10 things why i despised men.

2011-08-26T14:26:00.008+08:00

men and women are supposed to live here on earth in perfect harmony. liking each other and creating the world a better place. men and women are created in order to fulfill the reasons why both genders are created. however, in my years of living life, i keep on wondering why i really despised men although i fantasize some of them. i do have a feelings for them but there is really something that keeps me from backing up and hold it on until it vanish. that's why i created this list of not so fun for men.

10.Suave. there is too much of everything. too much politeness, too much charm
to much of the whole lot. that it seems that they are too polished
that in a way that it has been rehearsed every single day.

9. High and might. they think that they are born to be strong. that there are
no opinions of some sort from the other party. they think that they are
the boss of every girls life. do this and do that. some girls would get
some yellowish or greenish discoloration in their bodies if guys dont like
what they see or hear.

8. Cocky. well, lets just sat that most of them are cocky. when guys knows that
you have some feeling of some sort their ego or pride or whatever it is
goes way up high until it reaches to the farthest star on universe.

7. Show off/boastful. its like that every guy i met is like a silent bomb that
is waiting for the right word to go boom and poof there goes there things
how many girls they've met, how many girls they've kiss and even slept
with. i mean, cant you just zip your mouth and try to keep it personal.

6. Intense self-esteem. i think 98% of guys here living on this world wide world
would say that they are the most beautifully created human being. i mean,
each of us was created differently. that's why all of us is unique. but to
some of guys the only word that fits to their mind were ugly and beautiful
no more than that. if a girl has a single small flaw, they would tend to say
"nah, she's not for me, she does not fit to my standards."

5. Shady. you really cant trust them. there's this saying going around girls
that if you love someone you need not to give all that 100% and give
some of those to yourself, because in the end you cant really trust your
heart to some one that would just break it to pieces

4. Players. in line with number 6, most of them are players. they are just too
cool or handsome to stay with a girl. ah, it hurts their pride. i think
think there goal is to see who among them collects the greatest numbers of
girls.

3. Insensitive. they dont really mind when you're heart is breaking there into
tiny pieces that looks like a sand when they dump you and leave for other
girls. as long as they are happy with the other. they just leave you like
a dirty pile of rag.

2. Disloyal. loyality is really important among hope, dream and love. when you
you are loyal it shows that you really love that someone and you really do
care for them. but for them, loyalty is a garbage as long as they are
delighted with what they are doing. who needs loyalty when your content.

1. LIARS. they say they miss you, but they miss somebody else, they say they
want to stay together but they want it with other person. they say they
love you to the end of the world but they dont. simple as it is.

this is really full of hatred, but i cant help it. i dont really mean to generalized all men i know that some where there are a lot better, a whole lot maybe but in this life time of mine, i dont see any difference. they are just the same.

stressed and frustrated.

2011-08-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

i reallly dont know what i feel right now. I dont know if this is really stress, frustration or something else. i feel that i really dont deserved to a staff nurse or even deserving to be a nurse.

from time to time i have a lot of lapses during my 8 hour shift. Plotting, documentation, signing of meds, etc. i fear that my co-workers would hate me because of,my work. And i really dont like to be hated.

I just feel that i am really not that all out or i lack something that i couldnt describe or i lack something that everyone has.

holds him dear..

2011-08-06T15:51:00.006+08:00

its been long since ive been infatuated or in love with a guy before. For the reason that my heart still cant let go of the person who has it.

His name was jasper. He's not my boyfriend, nor my ex, or even a friend. He was just my college crush. ive met him during one of our school festivities. When i met him, our eyes just lock to each other and it feels like the world stops spinning and the time stops. For i can only see the soulful eyes of his.

During those days i feel so happy everytime i would see him, my day was complete eveytime i could see his face. Those days ended so soon, when i heard that he transfer school. In his last day in school, i was really savoring the moment, i took a picture of him in my memory.

My heart shatters when he was not in our school and i would'nt be able to see his face. Even though he was gone, my heart still lingers to him. Still hoping that i could see him once again. And i was still hoping that he would know my name or even knows that there is a girl who holds him dear for so very long.

Its been years had past, i have graduated and he too, but yet my heart goes to his, everytime i met i guy, the first thing that pops through my mind was him. Wondering if he too met another girls or better yet he has already a girlfriend. But still i cant let go of the past for it was the happiest moment in my life. I felt very special that i too could love and wait for a long time. And up until now he is my crush, my ultimate crush.

june stayed up all night!

2011-08-02T00:17:00.005+08:00

august first is one of the most memorable moment in my life. This was the day when i had my first meeting with my new co workers. It was tiring because our had an autocratic style of leadership. Although she wants suggestion but she always have a reason to object to all those ideas. It was kinda frustating in our part. But the best part is when me and my friends treat ourselves for having our first salary. at first we decided to have diner together and get a maasage. However one of our co workers invite us to have some fun. And this was the night when i had a taste of alcohol and going to the club when im in my home when my father is around. You all know how father gets so mad when you arrived home late at night.

pay day!

2011-07-31T20:30:00.002+08:00

finally, after a long while the day has finally come. the day when i get my first salary. i never thought that getting my first salary can cause me headaches. days before my day i've been thinking of buying new stuff, eating the most delicious foods and hanging out with my friends all day. but things changed when i've received my payment. my mind has changed from happy thoughts to worry thinking. got some payments to pay,like electricity bill, water bill, disconnection notice form the cable company and worst are those debts to pay.

i thought life would be so amazing when you have job but no!! its like eating a big pile of nasty foods.

fading away..

2011-07-24T20:17:00.000+08:00

so many things had change since the past. I've gained more friends, more experience in my work and most of all i've got a job.

The job that i really want. From the past i hve envision my self that i will remain happy and smiling until i die. But sadly, i think those things are going to fade away little by little. In my line of work, presence of mind and common sense should always be with you and there should be no line for errors. Up until now,i am still on deck for work and no rest days or off duty. I hope in the near future my smile wont fade away.

"keep your enemies closer"

2011-05-19T16:01:00.002+08:00

most of us heard the popular saying "keep your friends close but keep your enemies closer". i really dont know what is the true meaning of that phrase,even if i read it between the lines.

others make friends of you because of what you have and not by who you are; is that considered as an enemy? i really dont know. why would others do that?

some of your friends hates you because of the things that you cant control. they sometimes blame you for all the mischief they have got. its a really sad thing that most of us are guilty about all those things.

i really hope that all of us would try ro be genuine in all we do.

cravings!

2011-03-22T22:15:00.002+08:00

finally i am back again in the city.. its a been long since i'm back in the city.. and of course what is my top priority when im in the city?? FOOD TRIP!! its so nice to dine with your friends in a restaurant when all of you doesn't know what it is like in that specific restaurant... for a night we became a critic for that restaurant..

we have our dinner at a pizza restaurant. at first we dont know what size we are going to order since we are just only 3 to dine. at first we made up our mind with a XL size but when we ask the waiter how large it is, he pointed at a huge box for the XL size pizza. and with our eyes wide we change our mind immediately. for the reason that we can not finish that kind of a pizza. so, again we are back at square one. we were now deciding whether we order 3 regular size pizza or one family size pizza. after how many minutes we came up with 1 family size pizza. and at the end we were thankful that we chose family size because we had 4 slices each and it made us full already.

next is for desert. we made up our minds to go to our favorite ice cream store. its a korean ice cream store. the ice cream there was very delicious, creamy and it taste like a fruit when you ordered a fruit flavored ice cream. we also like the owner there because of her hospitality and she also suggested us what kind of noddle we should buy. so we ended up buying one.. hehehe..
its really a fun night. and my tummy is very happy..

music or nuisance?!

2011-03-08T11:06:00.004+08:00

it was midnight, when i lay my head to rest and prepare my self to sleep. when i heard something that ~~caught my attention~~. so many things that i began wondering if it is music or nuisance?

it begins with the squierk.squierk.squierk of the chair, then the sniff.sniff from my nose, afterwards was the never ending tap.tap.tap.tap.tap of the keyboards, of course the click.click of the mouse should never be forgotten. with the tik.tak.tik.tak.tik.tak. of the clock, then the tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk. of the cellphone keypad. plus the aw.aw.aw.aw.aw outside of our house and the meow.meow.meow. maybe there has been a fight between the dog and the cat, hmmm.. i wonder who won. until i heard the warning of the virus scan in the computer. oh yes, the booming sound coming from the plane flying over to our house. then it from seconds to minutes it slowly fade away.

maybe that is how the ORCHESTRA OF THE NIGHT played.

UNDERCONSTRUCTION!

2011-03-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

wOw!!

it's been months since i last updated my blog. and i've finally come to my senses that i must resume in blogging..
there are so many reasons why i did not update my blog almost ~~four or five months~~. its all because of my super draining journey of my life, and that is to be ready in taking my licensure examination. since then i promise my self not to blog or surf the net at any cause except when the day of releasing of our examination results. finally our results had been handed out and i PASSED!!

Lucky me.

so now, for my long haitus i have returned! I am officially back at blogging. although i have mention this for a couple of times but now is different, my only barrier in blogging is time. for the reason that i am still busy with doing some stuff about ~~handling some documents and stuff~~, but i know now that i can manage it, this time.

so i am back with a new different and outrageous blog with some additional things going on. although it is still underconstruction i do hope that you will still enjoy reading my blog.

happy with friends!!

2010-11-08T13:30:00.010+08:00

blog update!

finally after a long period of just sitting in an arm chair, listening and writing down what our reviewer would impart his knowledge for our upcoming licensure examination. We had our 3 days BREAK!!

And for the first day of our very much awaited break, we planned on what concept we would to for our first ever contest we joined as a group. Its a photo contest!! One of my favorite hobby in my life.. Although my part is not as a photographer, but I am still happy with what my job is. and that is a photo editor!!

yeheay me!!(this is me doing my stuff.. )

It's not my first to edit photos but i am not also a pro. i just do it for fun and the enjoyment of what would i do in the process and of course the outcome.

while in the "photoshoot" it never that easy.. there's so many ideas flying around once we started. but we handle it perfectly. with all the smile and laughter all around and the ambiance is so great! and not to mention our location is a public establishment. a CAFE!! with all the other customer around looking at us.. but we're greadtful that it's monday and its office hours, so at this point we are the only customer so we can do everything we want. with the owner helping us with the "wind effect" so everything went great!!

untitled...

2010-09-06T21:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes love can make your life go turning;
Fees like your in cloud nine or heaven.
It gives you a sense of being special,
that makes your heart beats fast like in "Drum Line".

You never really know what to do or want.
It's just a pop-up game when you're with him.
You really doesn't know what you're going to say.
You act like crazy when you are together.

It's a breath taking moment when you see him,
feels like he's taking your oxygen away.
It makes you smile just by looking at him.
AH! He's in my system!! Do I hate it??

It happened so fast and end so quickly.
I can not get over through everything.
It just blows my mind each time I recall,
To all those things that we shared together.

He is my first in everything romantic.
He's the first guy I blurted my true feelings,
The first guy who gave me a great big hug.
And the only guy that I gave my first kiss.

Reminiscing is a painful thing to do.
Specially when you know where his heart now.
Moving on is my one and only option;
But it's not that easy to do.

In order for one person to move on,
You must first know how to let go.
Letting him go is so hard for me to do.
I just love him so much, he's special.

Seeing him now is too painful to bear.
Looking at his girl makes me sob in pain.
It's a complicated situation; it's life, undeniably.
It's a bitter sweet ending of a love story.
That has no story at all, I guess.

However, I had to. I had to let go.
I know its just too difficult to handle,
But I know later on I can succeed with it.
I just want him to be happy even though,
I am not with it. I just want my SMILE back.

Story #2

2010-08-31T19:49:00.004+08:00

It's a very magical spring night. Where you can see a very huge black blanket covering the world dabbed with the most precious jewels on the world. Everything is perfect but not for Janice. She has a hard task to do in order for her to get to her old self. Janice was once before a very energetic, jolly and a happy person. She loves everything that God created. Every small and tiny creatures and things makes her smile and happy. Janice is in a situation where she is having a hard time to decide on what to do.

She walk alone in the chilling night in order for her to think and to decide. She endure the shivering wind that keeps on passing her. She really don't know where to go, she just let her feet to decide on which trail to go. Walking with out knowing where to go gives Janice time to recollect all the lamentable things that made her life upside down. Until flash back strikes her as he keep on walking to the unknown path.

With the trembling breeze of night, Janice suddenly stop and found herself in a magical site. She lift her head up and see how the trees dance into the music of the air and how the water glows in the heavenly river. She was in the river bank. Standing with an awe that never believed how beautifully God created the earth. She realized that even though she is carrying a big load in her shoulders there is still such wonderful things that she never see.

She was preoccupied with the things she saw, the fireflies flying around adding color to the perfectly created scene. She looked up and gazed at the world's finest jewels, she was hoping that answers would fall down into her like a falling star. She closed her eyes and feel the wind blows as she listens to the sound of the night. She suddenly feel a cold water running in her face. She could not stop her self as tears go flowing by. It was the moment where Janice open up her feelings to the world. She was all in sadness and in despair. She only wants to let it out. Until she reach the point of her decision. She decided to let go and give up her special someone to one of her important friend. She knew she was just making their situation more complicated. She feels that she was just a freebie in a sweet chocolaty candy.

Janice said goodbyes to the wonderful scenery as she left her heart hiding deep down in the big old oak tree. It was the perfect place where she could leave her shuttered heart.

Janice was accidentally fall in love to her friend that she thought he feels the same way too..

~Goodbye my Love~

Story #1

2010-08-26T23:30:00.007+08:00

"Life is everything but a Pandora's Box. You know what it is but your never sure what is behind all those glittering, curved patterns around it. You remain curious as the days run by and the time keeps ticking until you realize that everything is just a matter of choice."

One curious girl was still searching for the right reason why she lived, her name is Jane. She live her days with full of questions; "why I am alive?", "what is really my purpose in living?", "is there a thing that God wants me to do?" Those inquiries keep her motivated until one question that really struck her the most in her entire life; "Does anyone out there loves me?" Jane was in her intimacy versus isolation stage where she's looking for an answer.

For a month, Jane found a guy that makes her smile and keep her inspired always. He is one of the reason why everything is colorful and his name is Rob. They became friends, just like normal friends do they share a lot of laughter and sadness. They become at ease in each other in a quick instance. Even though Jane was going in and out in their hometown because she was following her dreams. They would just meet every once in a while. One night, Rob sent a message to Jane telling her that he already missed her and he wanted to see her on that weekend. It was a breath stopping, heart pounding message for Jane, it was her first time to receive such word and decided to go home and went to her hometown with her expectations went high. However with some unknown reason, they never talked to one another the moment they meet. Instead Rob keeps on talking to Jane's friend and it keeps Jane's heart keeps breaking into pieces. Until she no longer hold it, she cried her heart out in her bedroom the whole weekend.

Going back to her business was a challenge, she has difficulty sleeping and has no energy left to eat. Her mind was busy remembering what happened to her weekend. In one stormy night, Jane was alone in their house, nobody really knows that thunder and lightning was one of her greatest weakness. She tries to control herself not to mind the booming sound that night but it was a surprise that suddenly water come rushing down to her cheeks, it was tears. Tears from being afraid but most of all tears of being broken-hearted. She was competing with the storm until one of them looses. Jane wants to move on, but her heart and mind still lingers on those sweet memories Rob and she had.

Three days after, Rob send a message to Jane, telling her how was she. Jane thought she moved on and already letting go to the feelings that she just acknowledge but no, her heart beats fast as Rob's name flashed in her small cellphone's screen. She was back again; still hoping for something else. As the night goes deeper, Rob was continuously asking Jane what really happened to her that weekend. She could not stop herself but told Rob what was her problem; and it was him. She blurted her true feelings to Rob, it was a come what may episode of her life.

Rob decided to meet Jane the following weekend. To straighten things up between the both of them. They decided to talk in an old gazebo near the river bank. It was a beautiful night, with the moon come shining down the sparkling water of the river, with the fireflies giving life to the sleepy flowers and trees in the river bank. It was wonderful.It was perfect for reconciliation.
Tears fell down again in Jane's face, she thought she was okay, she thought that it was already gone, but she was wrong. Looking at Jane's situation, Rob was moved and felt anger to himself. He drag Jane up to stand and hug her tight. He wants to show her how he was sorry for letting Jane feel that way. Jane's world suddenly pause for a while, as she thinks of how she would react about the sudden but wonderful feeling. She was somehow felt relieve and calm. They talk a lot of things, they talk about them, they talked about what they are going to do. Jane doesn't really know what she really want to say to Rob, she just want to savor the moment that they are together.

Until Jane decided to go home, it was already enough for her, but without her knowing, Rob gave her a gift that she would never forget in her entire life. Rob suddenly lift Jane's face and slowly reach her lips and sealed it with his. Jane's world suddenly stop rotating as she sees butterfly flying into her mind as she was savouring the softest marshmallow she ever had in her life.

It was the moment that Jane's heart was completely broken. She knew right there and then that she could never have Rob. She knew that she can never had a happily ever after. For she knew from the start that Rob's heart belongs to her friend.

~Pleasure and Pain~

realizations come flooding!

2010-08-26T23:04:00.004+08:00

its been a month since i last updated my blog. due to some circumstances i wasn't able to use our computer since the start of our review for our board exam this coming December. Also we admitted our monitor for some maintenance.

until this day, i come to realize that blogging is a really fun way to express yourself and to enhance your skills. as for me, a thought came to mind that it would be great to update my blog again but with a twist. i am thinking of publishing my short stories here in my blog.

it been years since i last wrote my short stories and my poems. maybe i've got no inspiration and motivation to write again. but this time, with motivation and inspiration or not i am going to update my blog every now and then with my short stories. i am really hoping that you will like my stories.

hope you watch for it guys..

P.S.
fmy first short story will be published now..

birthday bash!

2010-07-11T20:30:00.003+08:00

last day, JULY 10 was my favorite singer's birthday.. he was one my favorite singers in the entire world. not to mention his adorable physique and great sense of humor.. every time i would see him in televisions or search some photos, videos, and everything else makes my day complete..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM HEECHUL!!!

it was his 27th birthday yesterday and i really wish him a very good health and a very good year for his career.. i hope that someday i could meet him..

(i know one of this days i can see him face to face.!! fingers crossed..)

frustrations!!

2010-07-08T13:52:00.002+08:00

for the couple of months, i have been staying in my hometown to spend my vacation with out any thing on my mind. however for the last 2 months I spend my days thinking about my requirements for my application in PRC.. i have been traveling back in forth from one city to another just to finish my number one requirements; and that is our "exhibit form". this forms comprises our cases in DR and OR.

we have to make this exhibit forms signed by various people; like the scrub nurse, the chief nurse, the clinical instructors, the different level coordinators and lastly the dean.. supposedly, i am finished with the first three but sadly our level coordinator in DR told me that i have to change some of my cases because of some errors. and now i have to find my clinical instructors just to have them signed my templates/ exhibit form.

but there is 1 distinct clinical instructor that get me frustrated!!
she always yell at me every time i approach her and give me reasons not to sign my templates... and that really hits my boiling point.. if only i did not put her name in my templates my process might go well.

everything pop!

2010-05-12T13:15:00.002+08:00

everyone were struck with the "popsizzling music" in various countries. to name as few, there are korea (k-pop), japan (j-pop), china (c-pop), and other countries in Asia and in west. but i haven't really heard of Philippines pop music. I am a certified *music lover* in all kinds of genre.many countries now are launching their own girl\boy band except the Philippines.

it is really interesting to see how those group sing and dance in harmoniously. they all got the "it" power. they've got the looks, the voice and the body; they got it all. most of us were invaded by the korean music industries and lost of us like k-pop. however, i am really waiting to see the Philippines make their own girl/boy group to let those invaders that we also have the "it" power.
however, there are many attempts in creating girl/boy group but had some difficulties to make stardom especially in girl group.

but wait, few months ago, i have heard my classmate telling me that there were one band that she thinks that it's another k-pop singers but when she continuously listen to the song, she was surprise because later she found out that some lyrics were in tagalog. she also said that the music is good but it has the same music tone to a k-pop song. at this point, i am curious enough to search for the pinoy band and luckily i've found who they are. they are the XLR8 (pronounce as *excellerate*) a group that has 8 members, which they so proclaimed the rescuer of P-pop.

they are the answers to those famous k-pop and j-pop who are invading the country by storm. i am really excited to see how these group will make wave to the limelight. i want to see them if they were able to conquer also other countries like other stars. however, it's sad to face that there are lots of Filipino out there who would not recognized them as a P-pop artist. instead they would say garbage at them.

lets see what's in the future of this first ever P-pop; XLR8.

vote casted!!

2010-05-10T11:22:00.000+08:00

it's already may 10..
the weather is cloudy and gloomy.

Now is the time where all Filipinos makes a stand and shout for change. it is the time where Filipinos will vote for the people who they think that is appropriate for the position. its been so many years that the Philippines was not that stable, many issues has risen, many politicians has controversies regarding their works, and so on. it's been six years of indulging those "political war".

But now, its the time to make a difference!!

its the very first time were Philippines uses the automated voting. the PCOS machine. it was some what fun observing the people around me what they think about the PCOS machine; but there is only one thing that sticks on my mind and that is "PCOS machine looks like trash bins." however, i don't give a mallows on that, as long as my ballot is accepted.

i've voted for those people who i think that makes a difference. i've voted for change. i've voted for the country's future. i've voted for the PHILIPPINES.

summer so hot!

2010-04-16T12:00:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i enjoyed summer. starting my first year college i've spent my summer days studying, going on duty for our related learning experience.it's all about school!. even though i am not a fan of going out but i still want to have fun when the school days is OVER.

now that, nothing can stop me from enjoying the heat of the sun. primarily because, i am officially "out in school". no more quizzes, reports, studying, and specially duties. even though after i will pass my board i would spend my days going on duty. but it's okay, as long as i will enjoy my first summer vacation EVER!.

preparing is a headache.. finding the right outfit and everything.. so excited that i almost forget my school responsibilities.. however, i tried to keep my cool..

but i am excited!!!

once in a life time pictorial.

2010-04-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

yearbook pictorial. so anxious. so hungry.so tired. yet so HAPPY!!

us while waiting for our turn.. not totally transformed.. (i think its only me.)

~jed and linda~

~kat, gen, jed and linda~
~linda and papet~

feeling like a MODEL!

~shots taken just outside our room~

other stuff to see:

SERIOUSLY back.

2010-04-07T21:57:00.000+08:00

ever since my last post. i've been busy doing something that makes me want to sleep whenever i can have a chance. i've been doing some preparations for our seminars for our class, making some AVP for our seminars, completing our thesis paper, finishing all our requirements, and so on.. that's why i failed in updating my blog... but since i am totally free now and have much greater time in using the net i decided to start blogging again..

i will just not blog the nice stuff that happens before but i will start by putting some of my pictures that really makes me happy this year..

i am hoping that you too will look forward in it..

smile always!!

P.S.
i know that there are only few people who read may blog.. but i will act as if i have a million readers so that i have a million reasons why i should blog my life's event..

back in blogging..

2010-01-24T04:20:00.000+08:00

after how many months i have been away in my vitual world.. finally i have find a time where i could update my online journal.. so many things that i want to share to you and so many stories to tell.. in line with this, i would really post all my remarkable moments that i enjoyed while i am away.. so here's the line up.. first is our "third food stop" next; is our "retreat", and finally is our last "seminar".. seminar is the reason why i am so away with my blog..

so at the moment my groupmates are already sleeping and i am the only one who remains awake and i take this opportunity to aupdate my blog

busy,busy again...

2010-01-06T18:17:00.000+08:00

another has come and another new challenges faces me. with lots of things to do in school because of our near "graduation" lot of things to be accomplished. there is no time for me to update my blog very often. though i have many things to published. lets just say those entries are "COMING SOON" on justmejune.blogspot.com

hope that you will look forward on it..

P.S
I did not win the contest.. but its okay.. experience counts..

first contest ever!

2009-12-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

when jami invited me to join her contest i have second thoughts. primarily because i have a trouble in one of the criteria.. which is i have to follow her on twitter.. however.. due to my excitement of how those it feels to join in a contest in the web, i finally decided to join.. i hope though that i am not late..
so this is their banner...

wish me luck guys.. i will really try my best to win this.. when i fail in this one, i should better try on the next one.. hehehehe

please pray with me.. thanks.. love you all~

trippers~!

2009-12-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

December 14, was yet another monday for us to enjoy our selves with another night out. even though me, emily and cherry were having our exams starting on the 15th (luckily, it was already finished.. that is way i had this time to update this..).. It was my turn to pick for a restaurant where all the four have us haven't try it before. And because it's my turn to suggest a restaurant, I immediately suggest a Korean Restaurant; the restaurant that i have longing for to dine in (i guess its almost a year and a half had past). And so my dreams had finally, came true!! We take our dinner at *KIMCHI RESTAURANT*

with out further a do, it is time that i will show you all the stuff that we had.

~ ordering our meals!! Cherry was not yet hear, so we just ordered our meals first.

~appetizers!! (some were delicious, some were let's just say, out of our taste buds capacity)..

~ the Kimchi Soup!! So YUMMY!!!

~ kim bap!! so tasty, and we like the salad that comes with it too..!!

~the ever delicious gyeranmari with oyster sauce.. I think..

~ Emily got a bowl of kimchi soup!!!

~ Cherry with the Gyeranmari...

~ lady with the kim bap... and lastly;

~ me, with everything else.. hehehe

after our superb dinner.. we hang out a little while, and looking for a place were we could find some nice lights. and we ended up in someones "exclusive" subdivision. lucky for us the guards let us enter with out a sweat. unfortunately there are only few houses that have their lights on..
anyways.. at least we had a fine night.. until next year! we will have our another food trip, and its emily's turn to find a place for us.!!

happy moment!

2009-12-10T18:31:00.000+08:00

last december 6, my friend lady, text me that we should set our "food trip"on that day instead of the near future, because she's craving and dying to eat doughnuts.and she has a store in mind where we could eat. it was supposed to be just the two of us, but at that time i was also texting my other friend emily, for some matters and i've invited her alsoafter a while we've met at mcdonalds. I was surprise because my other friend cherry was also there. SO HAPPY.

after that i've decided to go home and change my clothes first, because i am the only who was wearing my uniform (since our school is just adjacent to the mcdonalds, and at that time i was having some snacks with my school friend) but they've stopped me because TIME IS RUNNING OUT and since me and emily was going back home in our town. and finally we've landed our foot in cello's to eat those delicious doughnuts.

it feels like time has stooped for awhile, and feels like all the memories are came back flashing. it was such a happy moment that the four of us had gathered over such period noticed.

here's some pictures we've take during our moments together

~yum-yum! look at those happy doughnuts, waiting for us to eat them

~ tasting all the flavors!!!!

~now, they've bringing it all to me...

~eating it all up

even it did not last long, but i am happy that we,ve met on that night. next stop at *Shabu-shabu* suggested by lady again.

missing them already.

2009-12-03T11:34:00.000+08:00

when i started going to college i have met two distinct people that change my life . they are the once that truly understands me and teach me a lot and how to become strong and carry on the challenges of my life. they are Karissa Ann Barnes and Roma Alexandra Magarin
now that we are separated because of some circumstances

kae-kae is currently living in Massachusetts, USA. they lived there for almost 2 years now. and we just communicate in facebook and through emails and aleck just transferred school a year ago because she already lost interest in our course, she is now studying hotel and restaurant manager.

lately, aleck just told me that she has a heart problem and that really shock me and kae-kae. she told me that she has been diagnosed with "mitral valve prolapse". even though it is a minor heart problem that isn't much to worry about. but thinking of the fact that it is a heart problem, it can cause and lead to a lot of things.

by that news, i wanted to see her again, however due to our conflicting schedules we cant see each other for now. but i will really try my best to see her and kae-kae, also wants to see her and go back here in the Philippines, but she was also busy there with her work and i think her family wont allow it.

I hope that aleck will be just fine and that everything will be okay.

our seminar.

2009-11-30T21:06:00.001+08:00

the most awaited time has finally come.. tomorrow December 1, 2009 at 1 pm - 6pm we were going to conduct our seminar about the "immune system".. we will be the one who will give the seminar and i hope that we will do not only good but the best.. because this is the sole reason why we are so busy lately and we were also spending money from here to there. also we have no rest just to make our hand outs, layouts, and all..

and i am proud to say that here is our picture layout..

although it is not that perfect but i think this is nice enough..

*happy.happy.*

i've also made the AVP for our introduction. however there was an error while i was loading it here. its sad that i cant share it with you.. but its okay, it doesnt really matter..

wish us luck tomorrow.. i hope we will do our best..

busy me. busy bee~

2009-11-13T10:21:00.000+08:00

another semester has finally came into student life. first semester had ended last november 8, and it was also the beginning of our break. However that break only last for 2 days and our second semester started last november 10.

From the start we are so happy because our teacher did not attend our first meeting. But sadly our second and third subject gave us a crap in their lessons. Rizal (second subject) gave us a lot to do on our next meeting which is on monday. we have to make a symbol of our group that is based on rizal's name. our group was chosen to be the "laong-laan" group. what would be our symbol or flag of that name??? next is make a chant our of that name we got. we also had to write a positional paper and ome kind of reflective paper about the land, how it is different from rizal's era from this new era.

if our rizal subject gave us paper works, now our Seminar (third and last subject) gave us a lot of paper works and programs. first is that we should make our own seminar with the topics assigned us about health (of course!). our group was assigned to conduct a seminar about immunology and its diseases. I have been chosen to discuss about rheumatoid arthritis. I should work on its disease process and all. Everything about RA.

well, it is a bit tiring but there's a catch; because before we will go on duty every thursday to saturdays, our wedenesday is our freetime.. it means no class every wednesday!! what a nice schedule..

HAPPY!

Awards to my lovely blog friends.

2009-11-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

To accept this award here’s the rules:

Post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

Thanks to my friend Moonzkie for sharing me this wonderful award. I really appreciate it and this is the first time a have received an award.

I want to share this award to my newly found friends. Even though we did not see each other, i like to share this award to them.
jacque \ kat \ ayesha \ syahirah \ atta \ joan \ lizele \ aehlyn \ ismi \ jayson \ kaka \ rineko \

I wish that by this award, they would find joy and happiness and feel that they are given importance as a friend.

this is strange

2009-10-30T19:45:00.000+08:00

it started with just a smile. when we've finally talk everything went whirlwind.
sharing all the jokes, laughter and everything else. sometimes we act like we are friends since then, never thought that we just met. it was a very fun and wonderful experience. We were just strangers and in just a blink of an eye we were close as shoes. i never expect that from that day on, i started to think about you, recalling the events that happened and most of all hoping to see you everyday. never realize that i started staring at you and it makes me smile. is this something good? or something bad? just a while ago, it makes me sad when i've discovered that you are probably with someone or someone is already staying at your heart. this is starnge, i dont hate it but i dont love it either.

I hate it when i this thing happened this thing come into me, because my whole system would change. I will start thinking all the possibilities and worst is expecting something much more. At the end I know that this whole was just a short that bounds to end anytime. I know that its sad when that day comes, but i have no choice, but to let it go because some things are meant to fade away when you like it or not. however, i am still hoping that it will not come into that 'coz something are worth keeping for.

everything around this world

2009-10-20T09:21:00.000+08:00

from day to day i have been doing the same thing over and over again. waking up.prepare my self to school.go to school.walk a little bit in the mall. think of some foods that i would eat. then go home. and then sleep. every single day that is my daily routine. and then one day, when i was traveling back to our house, my mind suddenly think of something. something that is out of the ordinary. things that a curious person would do. i want to write all the things that i would think about this world. however, i have no confidence about my outcome and my sentence construction. even though before, i am an associate editor-in-chief and a photojournalist in our english newspaper but i am still not that confident in writing.

as i assess the people around me, i wonder what they are thinking. money?love life?or how about how to live life?. i dont know, it was just all maybes. every time i look around people are always thinking, they looked like they were thinking. or maybe not. how i wonder, if they think about how earth become to life or when this all starts. scientific research would tell us all. But do they consider finding out themselves? well, maybe i guess i am just the one thinking such silly things. silly things that makes me live ife more.

people say that i am a "reserve person" and i wonder how do they come up with that. maybe because they always see me just sitting in the corner and look around. i was just trying to observe things. how do poeple live there life. do they live it just like the way i did? maybe not. do they appreciate the smallest things in this world?, i hope so.

thinking is very easy thing to do but how about acting out what i think?. maybe i would have a hard time fufilling it all.

on rest.

2009-10-19T19:18:00.000+08:00

due to some unexpected event. i would be having some troubles on posting my new entries, update my poems and post my photos. its sad that it will be for a while. It is mainly because i wrecked again our computer and my laptop is still in the repair shop. plus i just cant go into a cafe because im too lazy to walk and it is just a waste of money.

however, i will truly try my best to update my blog. and besides, i cant just leave my blog because of my carelessness.

I've got a feeling...

2009-10-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

for over 3 years and 4 months in school, i have this feeling that i am already tired of my everyday school load. from all the requirements from all the different subjects and at the same time it has also similar due date . Moreover, it is not like the usual requirements that our professor needs . They really want us to cultivate our minds in order for us to learn and prepare us for what lies in the future.

I've to a point where I am too lazy to go to school during our first subjects. Also I've got only 1 or 2 absences before I will be out in our minor subject. moreover, I sometimes think during our minor subject classes that i planned that i only go to school just for our major subjects and do my requirements for the major subject only. Nonetheless, i've never come to that part where i only go for my major subjects, hopefully i will not do it .

I've got friends that is now a graduate and they always told us that during the last year of our school, there would be a lot of students who will fail to proceed because of their absences, tardiness, and not passing of the requirements. Their main reason was that they are totally drained from all the school works and they've already lost interest in schooling.

I know that they have good intentions for what they want us to do, but some times it's not easy to work,work, and work all the time . We need rest also from all those factors that makes us tired. The inspiration to go to school is lessen because of those needed requirements that somehow makes our mind topsy-turvy . I cannot blame them, it is their job to help us gain more and more knowledge as we are in school.

Nevertheless, school is really that interesting even though you've bombarded with a lot of requirments. Everyday is another maze that you need to figure out the way to gain knowledge .

"school is interesting when you programed your self that you need more knowledge"

Philippines Today.

2009-10-01T03:58:00.000+08:00

CRIMES. GRAFT AND CORRUPTION. SCANDALS. CRAB MENTALITY. Those are some of the elements that Philippines had. Although all other countries has no exception to those elements, whether it is a first country or not. However, on those countries the officials and also the people were trying to stop the cause of it. The Philippines had a different story. As times go by, there ways of going to the wrong path is also evolving. Public officials using the money of their citizens for their personal interest. Not thinking what would be the effect of it in the future, as long as they are happy, then that's it. Lets accept the fact that many Filipino's are suffering since the earth was made. there were so plenty of time to change it. But when we are getting near to that change, some people will help us fall down again.

Philippines is a great country indeed, like many other countries, it has its own uniqueness that makes the Philippine stands out. The good qualities of the Philippines were covered by its own dark side that people create. That is the reason why foreign countries talked bad thing about us. Like one journalist in Japan that he labeled Filipino's to be a slave, and not only that there's also a lot of things. Why do they do that to us? its because of what they saw how the government run in the country or how they perceived it to be.

As a citizen of the Philippines, I would like to take a stand for the welfare of the future generations. I maybe young and not that educated about how politics should run, but i have enough knowledge to consider that some of us were doing it the wrong way.

my nightmare dreams

2009-09-23T12:56:00.000+08:00

ever since i've met you last september 6, i cant get you out of my head. every time i fall asleep it your face that comes out and every time i had a dream, it always get you in there. every time i had my duty in the hospital ward, i am hoping that you would appear in nowhere, but how can that be possible when you are miles away. When i have time to think about everything under the sun, in the middle of it i found my self thinking of you again. wondering what were you doing or have you taken up your meals or ready. I hate myself for doing that and i hate myself furthermore everytime i think of you as my future. for now, i could not erase you from my system and i dont like it.

how can i move on and find another when all i think about is you..

cry of a lingering heart.

2009-09-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

September 6, 2009
it's the a time for me to take a rest in the province from my outrageous night during our acquaintance party. it was also my schedule for removing my sutures (last monday i've undergone a minor surgery), supposedly my schedule was in the morning but my nurse aunt texted me that we will just have to meet at around 5 pm in their house so that we could go together in the hospital.

So, when we arrived at the emergency room at the hospital, i saw a figure in the triage area, someone that was bowing his head because i think he just contacted someone through sms and he really looks familiar, that makes my heart beats fast and immediately feel my hopes gone up. i've already have an image in my mind of who it was but i want to see the face. However, my hoping didnt last that long because he finally raised his head and from that moment i felt the rush of my blood going to my cheeks.

it was him!

tears came running down into my eyes as we went home, trying to hold as i can so that my father and my aunt would not notice it. until we finally reached home tears were so excited to see the light. im so happy that my father needs to go to someplace else and im left alone in the house. as i put the key in the key hole, the tears finally came rushing down in my face. i cant help put think about him and how it started. the memories also came dashing around. until i lay down my head to sleep, my tears still want to see the stars that was on my ceiling. up until i closed my eyes it kept on flowing and up to my dreams his face is the one i saw.

it was tears of happiness and hopefulness.

i've been wanting to see him after 4 or 7 months ago after our operation room rotation. also i've always included him in my prayers for his safety and happiness. I am so glad that he pass his licensure examinations. now, my heart is still waiting for him. i cant wait to be a professional, so that i can work with him in the same hospital. and if God permits me, i do hope that i can proceed to medicine to that we could be colleagues in the near future.

Acquintance party '09

2009-09-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

September 5, 2009 the last acquaintance party that I would ever had. Since that was my final acquaintance party, i'd make sure that i make something out of it. It was tiring yet i really had a great night even though i am one of the program committee that facilitates all the event that night. I've run from one end to another and walk across the hall several times but its worth it. Being part of something really feels great. At the start we don't know what we are going to do but as the time goes by, we finally get the spirit of being in the committee. me and my friends didn't have some time to take photos during the night, however my 2 friends that were also in the committee only had picture taking during dinner break where there is no primary event was happened. So, we decided to make that time productive.

after the party was over my friends and i decided to take one last picture for our last acquaintance party and decided to go to a cafe.

At the cafe:

plurk!

2009-08-19T07:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i've decided to change my profile in plurk. from my "piggy theme" to "sweet cute cake theme" and i am happy that it turned out good. even though i am not finished yet, there were some details that needs to change but i'm to lazy to do it.

any ways here are my preview of my work.

is it cute or not.

2009-08-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

okay here's my dilemma. over the years i almost forgot about this "thing" of mine, until this day that we had our charades game during our ward class just to kill the time. it was not an ordinary charades.

let me first explain to you our mechanics. it was played by two teams and the two teams should line vertically facing backward. the first person should act out the word and pass it to the next person. the next person should only face the first person when he was tapped by him. until it reaches to the last person. The last person will write his guess on a prepared sheet of paper basing on the action that was done by the person infront of him.

well, when my guy classmates was that first person, i could not stop but laugh from the moment i saw his weird actions. our clinical instructor said that no word or sound would came out, that why we just did the "silent laugh" and just kept on laughing like there's no end while he was doing his far out actionthat's why i remember that whenever i do the silent laugh, i would usually snore at the middle of it and then continue laughing because i made another sound. although i want to stop laughing but i could not helped it because of it and he was laughing too. that is why i dont do "silent laugh", and those people around me would tell me that whenever i laugh all the people around the world would hear it because of its intensity.

i just dont like to explain to them my reasons cause i'm ashamed of it. and this day, i just humilate myself infront of that guy classmates of mine.

though i wander if it is rather a cute thing or not. "snoring in the middle of your laugh."

chris evans, the man that i adore..

2009-08-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

this is Chris Evans, the man that catches my heart ever since i watched him in his movies and specially in his famous movie like the fantastic four and the push. ever since then i started to like him, i became his fan. i became his fan secretly because i am too shy to tell my friends and classmates, and i guess they are not interested. i choose him to be the man that i adore because of his great talent and not to mention his great looks.

i happy that 4 days after my birthday is his birthday. he was born on June 13, 1981 in Massachusetts, USA. I know he is so far away but i am still hoping to catch a glimpse on him before its too late. Even though USA is so far away from the Philippines and we had an age gap of 8 years, but still i really adore him.

I really wished that i could see him in person, but i know it is impossible to reach because he is so high and mighty; and i am just a simple and average girl. also he is an actor and i am just a graduating college student. not to mention that he is certified swan and i am just an ugly duckling. Well, maybe this is my faith. I will just keep adoring him and support him through the rest of my life.

to my dearest grandmother

2009-08-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

today, august 6 is my late grandmother's birth day. she is so dear to me that is why, i decided to make a space for her in my blog. too bad that i dont have any picture of her before she died last 2007. however, i can still remember how she smiles and laugh and when she makes faces when she ate her favorite ice cream. even up to her death i didn't go out dining with her, because of her condition and also of my busy schedule and lets just add it up my attitude.
Honestly, i didn't told her how much i appreciated her and how much i love her. i really did not show to her how much i loved her.

that was my biggest mistake, and now that i realized that you should express your love to your family even though there is a huge wall between you, you just have to appreciate that they are there by your side. every night i always to talk to her and telling her that i really loved her. and now is her birth day. by this simple entry, this is my gift to her.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLA! eat a lot of ice cream there, because for sure its unlimited.!

all hail to the one and only..

2009-08-05T12:41:00.000+08:00

during the past days everyone has been talking about the true mother of the Philippines. Last Saturday an awful news has spread through out the country. Our former president Corazon "Cory" Aquino had died because of her severe illness. Now was the time to lay her down. her daughter, Kris Aquino did very warm and heart felt message to her mother. All Filipinos stopped from what they are doing to try and listen to her message. The president also declared a non-working holiday because of her burial. All Filipinos watched the burial of the late president Cory Aquino. from the mass up to the cemetery hundreds of thousands gather around to pray for the her and shout her name with pride.

Philippines became sad for the loss of a true hero. As a sign of love by the Filipinos, they wore yellow dresses and place yellow ribbon in each establishment as a sign of our love to her. Many had cried for death of our one true mother. that totally change the image of the Philippines while she was on reign. As the reason that i am one of those Filipino who loved and idolized her even i wasn't born during her time but even she was not a president anymore, she was still active in our government. and so, this is my one and only tribute to may idol and may HERO that change the entire nation.

THANK YOU PRESIDENT CORY AQUINO. WE LOVE YOU.

so happy.

2009-07-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

today, i don't know the reason why i am so happy. maybe because i am finished defending our case presentation. you might ask what is the big deal in case presentation. first of all it is that big of a deal because it is part in our requirements in our hospital ward exposure. secondly, it is because we are going to present it infront of our clinical instructor and to all our group mates and you should defend all the things that you have done. and thirdly, my most crucial phase, is that you are just standing infront with all your groupmates and it makes nervous. Plus, becuase of my nervousness my hands would be sweaty, and i feel cold and the worst thing is that, somehow i cant properly pronounce some the word becuase of that.. and it really bugs me..

however, it is really a nice experience after we have defended our case.

back to the real world!

2009-07-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

after the 10 days suspension, i am back again in the city with lots of work to do. with all the report in health strategy subject and of course our usual requirement; our case study. although, our case study was finished weeks ago but i need to edit my part so that it will have lesser errors.

However I would like to share to you, what i have been doing in the past 10 days in our provincial home. It is the usual, i ate a lot, like after having my heavy meals, i had not only 3 snack time (including the midnight snacks) i guess, i would say that i have 5 and i think it is also heavy. i think that i am like a panda bear. I also sleep a lot too. like after i woke up at around 9 in the morning i would tend to go to sleep again at around 12 noon or 1 in the afternoon; after having my lunch. I have 4 -5 hours nap time but i sleep at around 12 midnight to lessen my stored fat. Also, during my 10 days vacation, i only did was to watch television although there is no internet connection there and also i had spend my 1 day in cleaning our house, so i am not really that lazy after all. as well, i enjoyed myself repairing our wind chimes. I am so happy that at last, i tied them together!.

to summarize it all up, it was a boring yet productive and happy vacation.!

here's a story

2009-07-17T09:51:00.000+08:00

this is a story of my friend, and i want to share it with you because it happened to me too. So, this is how it goes. My friends name is adelene cheng we called her by her nick name "ade", you can click her name in my treasures if you want. Ade is really a tough lady, you cant see her giving up all the things she wanted, she really fight for what is right. She is a good friend and a good student also. She has lots of talents and maybe could be an actress. She appears in our fun clips in our room becuase her group had this thing of making fun videos but one thing that she really likes. She really like to play basketball, like her causin charlestone, who infact is our classmate also. She attended the practiced game in our school one evening and came home late becuase of that but she got permission by her parents about that. Until last wednesday, ade came to our school sad, all of us wondered why. the main reason why she is sad becuase her parents didn't want her to continue her basketball practice. Till, late that afternoon, when all of the students of our school were happy because of the 10 days suspension of class, i saw her crying in the corner of the lobby with her friends. she told me that she has a broken dream. and it came to my mind what was that her broken dream, it occurs to me that she could not play basketball again due to family reason. Until this very moment she still mourn for her lost dream and hoping that one day her parent mind would change. Lesson for this story: "if all things go crumbling down, dont lose all the hope that you had." "practice all the talents you had, or you'll never know that you lose it already."

As a friend of hers, lets make petition in order for her to play what she really like to her parents. Please give her all the support by viewing her blog and continuously pray for her. Let's make her happy.

10 days class suspension!

2009-07-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

due to the circumstances of influenza A H1N1, our school had declared that starting today (july 15) there would be 10 days suspension because of the virus. one student has been positive for the swab test for the said virus. Last week all our clinical instructors, the staff and all the dean of colleges has been alarm because of the growth of students who have been absent due to cough and fever, and even during our classes some of the students were having fever or cough. Our school had done the precautionary measure in our school to suspend our class for 2 days for campus disinfection. But as of this week, finally, our school president has spoken and declared a 10 days suspension of class.

as to cover up our 10 days no class ,there would be no intramurals during this first semester but they moved it on our second semester. Our school physician also said that there would be no reason for us students who will be sick on july 27 because of the given time. students who will be sick this coming 27 should not go to school and take the initiative to quarantine thereselves. also to those who will be sick, will not be accomudated by our school physician for thier physical examination but they will be immediately refer to our school if they have the 3 major signs and symptoms, which are the fever, cough and sore throat.

a new love(?) was found

2009-07-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

months had past since i noticed that we were some what always together. lets just say that we talk with one another a lot during our internship days. its just fun to think that we share the laughter and all the jokes...

its just weird because i just realize just yesterday that when he smiles, he looks so cute and attractive and i feel at ease when i'm with him.. I most tell you that, he is easy to go with and he is just an ordinary guy with an ordinary dreams..

although, i want this feeling to stop, cause it makes me confused and i feel weird.. i know that he loved somebody else, i know that this thing of mine is soooo stupid, and i do hope that this would vanish as soon as possible or else i would continue to fall for him and i think i have no right..

cant wait...

2009-07-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

i really want to post this entry earlier when i've heard the news, but i guess something came out and didn't make a draft first. but anyways, i come up to finally make an entry out of this news. I've heard that one of my favorite anime, blood + : has released their live action movie in titled:"BLOOD: THE LAST VAMPIRE". I am too sake about this movie and waiting for its premiere. I would really liked to watched this movie and hopes that it would come here in the Philippines soon, becuase when i visited there site, they put there that it will come up at July 10th on selected cities. that is why i am hoping that it will also have a premiere here. Although, they have really based more on the anime;blood the last vampire, i was hoping that there would be haji in the film but i heard he was not in.. the sad part is, when i read the comments and review some of them are negatives, like it was a flap and it was not cool enough and others say that the movie is bad maybe becuase of the script or in the bad directing and when i'ved wathced the trailer, i can't quite understands Saya's english, but whos to blame, she's korean... but my hopes still up to watch the movie and i will decide if it is really a flap or not.

AKO MISMO!

2009-07-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

after i had watched the commercial of "ako mismo", it totally struck my mind that i want to be a part of that organizations. i really want to help other people who are campaigning for CHANGE not only for the benefit of the politicians who are running this coming election but to all FILIPINOS out there. honestly, i really don't know who is behind this campaign ad, or what is its purpose. until i landed on their web site, i read that it is really MAKING A STAND AND TAKING REAL ACTION FOR THE CAUSES YOU BELIEVE IN. that line there really afflicted me, because i really want to change our country not for the downfall of others but for the good of other people. i really want to make a stand. to hear my voice to the others and say what i really want to say. AKO MISMO ANG MAGSASABI NA "PROUD TO BE PINOY" KAHIT SAAN.(i personally say that i am "proud to be pinoy" everywhere i go) AKO MISMO ANG MAG-AALAGA SA MGA TAONG MAY SAKIT.(i personally say that i will take good care to those who are sick.)

what a night indeed..

2009-06-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

it is my sister's birthday today that is why we planned to dine outside after our classes ended. our class ends at around 4:30 but i don't know what time my sister's class ended so i contacted her. she said to me that we will met at this specific restaurant which i've heard of it and had also dine in it. however i dont know what particular jeepney i would ride inorder for me to have a one way ride to get there, because before when i ate there i am with my friends and we use jed's car to go there that's why i have difficulties n going there. but the problem has bee solved. i rode a jeepney going to the highway where i could ride another pedicab in order for me to go to that specific place. when i got there i found out that my sister is not there yet, but 5 minutes or so, they arrived and we ate unitl our stomach burstafter that i went immediately to our house becuase my sister has another place to go to, i immediately change my clothes and do my night ritulas and then take a good night sleep.and when i woke up this morning i have to rush to hte comfortroom and do my thing there. to some things up, it was really a good evening.

happy birthday once again ate!

to my overseas friends..

2009-06-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

body of water and land has separated us,
although our friendship never stopped there.
trying to reconnect with each other,
through facebook, friendster and YM's.

i've met them in person,
and some are in the virtual reality.
even though i still now that
no boundaries are bound in our friendship.

it maybe a short run or a life long friendship,
but i still do consider them as friends for life,
'coz i know once you've become friends
they will always be my friends.

this is my ribute to my friends who are from far: karissa ann barnes, cheryl banzon, ashmirra putnaikk and adrian palaylay. hope to see you my friends. and thank you!!

PS.
kae, belated happy birthday once again! sana okay ka dinha..hehhee

confirmed!

2009-06-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

like any teanagers, i have been suffering from what you called acne lately. it started since i was in my first year of college until now, but before i can say that it was just a normal pimple that just passing by and will be healed after how many days. but lately i've been experiencing acne vulgaris.

it is where it affects the areas of skin with the densest population of sebaceous follicles; these areas include the face, the upper part of the chest, and the back. it is characterized by noninflammatory follicular papules or comedones and by inflammatory papules, pustules, and nodules in its more severe forms.

since summer i've been ashamed of myself going outside or even hanging with my friends because of my condition. i am also refraining myself from picture takings. i have been down to myself and even feel depressed about it. more importantly, i am very worried of getting infections becuase am assigned for our duty in the hospital ward. and it is so frustrating when somebody staring at you and ask you "what happened?" or "what things did you put in your face?" and the most wierdest thing is "are sure that it is natural or is it some black magic or so on.." and that makes me fell more depressed!! they are not HELPING me to feel better. before i am already suspecting that i have PCOS, becuase my mother has a history of PCOS or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and i only wants to have proofs.

when my mother's best friend saw me last summer, she invited me to go to the dermatologist. my doctor prescribed me a 1 week antibiotics and somthing else to apply in my face. But when i came to do the follow up checked up, she asked me to have an OB clearance becuase there are still lots of big pimples.. so just this saturday i went to our obgyn doctor to have an ultrasound and it was confirmed that i have a condition called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. and that is the main cause i have been suffering from acne vulgaris lately. my physician now prescribed me medication to help prevent PCOS. and now i cansee some improvement and i hope that it will go away soon. also i hoped that i would not undergone some operations because when i heard that one of my classmate has the same condition also, she has undergone operation to totally eradicate the masses that sticks in the ovaries.

what a good day indeed.

2009-06-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

from my 3 pm up to 11 pm duty last night. i have to wake up early this morning for our ward class; and because of that i thought that i was going to be late.. Our call time in school was 7:30 am and i woke up at 6:30 am. and our house is too far away from school, it takes about 15-30 minutes ride.

the funny thing is that i had set my alarm from 4 am up to 6 am and yet i just stopped it and continue sleepingand if i did not turn to the other side of my bed to have a more comfortable sleeping, i would never waken up at 6:30 am and thanks God that i looked at my clock and get my eyes to be as wide as an owl. although it was already 6:30 i am still tired to move my body. i really thought that i was going to be late, and if i am going to be late i will have many sanctions that makes my tiring life more tiring. Thaks to the Lord again that even though i was at my slow pace from getting up, up to taking a bath, i arrived at school at exactly 7:30am thanks to the fast moving transportation and our clinical instructor was late.

further mire, when we started our ward class, my mind still wants to sleep. I was pretending to listen to all the reporters and jot down notes in our ward notebook because our clinical instructor was just sitting adjacent to me; and i was praying we would not have our quiz out from those 5 reports because for sure my answer would be "nothing"what can i expect, my mind is still floating. but another prayer was answered, i am excempted of taking up the 50 item quiz becuase he saw me listening very eagerly to the reporters and that i was writing down notes

what a wonderful day...

finally, i am a certified active student in school!

2009-06-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

its been three years since i was in our school and this year is my forth and last year in college. Ever since i was a freshman, i am too shy to join all the school activities, even in joining some clubs and school organizations. until now, i realize that this is my last chance of joining and enjoying myself as a student.

Finally, I joined three organizations: "Directors Guild", "Volunteer Service Program" and "BSN FratSor Committee". These three organizations really reflect who i am. Even though there are a lot of clubs that i really want but i guess it is not good to join all the clubs that i want because i know for sure that i cant manage the time.

This is my school ID together with my Volunteer Service Program ID card..
So happy!!

what the future holds.

2009-06-23T20:01:00.000+08:00

during our break when we had our class this morning my friend showed me a baby picture in his cellular phone. He wants me to tell him if the baby is cute or not. and i said to him that its okay, but infact the baby was indeed cute. he laugh out laud and told me that it's his baby. I thought it was a joke and i just told him that it cant the baby is way cutter than he is.. And he said to me that it would be must probably a baby of his in the future with a beautiful lady. and from that on i was intrigue, so i ask him how did he do it and he just said that it was just a morph. He morph it in the internet. So when i arrived at home, i already started to morph my picture and with the picture of my crush. I dont know what to say, i just simply laugh out loud when i saw the picture.. the picture came out as a toddler or a preschooler. All I can say is that it is really a bit weird. you can all say that by looking at the picture..

i dont know but this is really weird..

i did 2 other morphing thing with my 2 actor crushes and our baby would look like this:
this would by my supposed baby with Gong Yo; and this would be my supposed son with Lee Jun Ki:

All I can say is that this is really a pretty weird thing!!!!!

may God rest your soul..

2009-06-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

when i logged out my yahoo mail i stumbled across an article in the front page of yahoo. it catch my interest because of their featured news. It states their "Sad Stories stir the Web" and the picture was a beautiful young girl. when i clicked the link and as i further read the article, my eyes becomes close to tears as i read the first story.

It was about a 10 year old girl died because of a terminal illness - liver cancer to be exact. she has been diagnosed with the said illness for over 3 years now and the only thing that gives her alive was her eagerness; eagerness to see a movie that she really like.

it was an animated movie from Pixar "Up". To see the movie "Up" was her last wish. Her parents wants to bring her to the theaters but saddly shhe is too ill to go to a theater house. However, one of their family friend made some drastic calls to Pixar, hher wish was fulfilled. One of Pixar's employee flew to the childs home and deliver a very special gift. A DVD copy of "Up" for her private viewing. After viewing the mobie "Up" the girl passed away after fulfilling her last wish.

Although she can not longer see, her mother was there at her side to narrate all the scenes for her. After 7 hours she has finally gone up.

this girl's named is Colby Curtin
P.S
the dvd was brought is the only copy of the said movie

class starts!

2009-06-15T10:34:00.000+08:00

"KAPOY KAAYO,LAMI PA MTULOG!"

simple phrase but that is what my heart is screaming after we had started our class just this week. And to add up my burden, my blouse hugs me already. it only tells me that much has change. but i am happy that my skirt and my duty uniforms were not change. maybe because my blouse were made since 4 years ago.

well, it's not that bad actually, it is still wearable. and it would be impractical if i would go to the seamstress to make me a new one. i have only a year to go for me to graduate, and i will only use it twice in a week. so i will just to hang in there, and try to make some adjustments in me.

relaunching!!

2009-06-09T16:05:00.000+08:00

after 2 years of not updating "our blog", finally me and my friend lady had joined forces to edit our blog again. The memories and the laughter we shared were still fresh in my mind. This relaunching of our site will help us to communicate with each other, even though we cant find a time to see each other again.. i am so happy that we have done something nice in my birthday. this is probably my birthday gift.

if you want to see it just look into my links, there you can find the name "JCSociety".. thank you so much!!

'D Day!! (june 9)

2009-06-09T14:53:00.000+08:00

today is the day when it is the 160th day of the year (161st in leap year) in the Gregorian calendar . There are 205 days remaining until the end of the year. this is the day when we celebrated saint columba, saint diomedes, saint liborius holidays. Not only saints but also a lot of things happen in this month and day, like roman emperor nero marries claudia octavia, the world war II in the year 1944, kosovo war in the year 1999, and many more.

In June 9 there are also a lot of people were born during this said date like actors and actresses, comedians, football player and many more. There were also many deaths in this date.

Even though it happens in different year but one thing is significant, it happens on the same date, JUNE 9..

It is the date where the most wonderfull things God has created. All the things that history cant never forget.

Oh yeah, i remember.. I'm one of them too.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

enrollment

2009-06-08T12:57:00.000+08:00

today is the day when our enrollment starts. Luckily our enrollment process is really fast. maybe because i went to school early, i think eight o'clock is early enough to go to scholl for enrollment. and plus, our dentel certificate is not due yet, i thought it was already due, because i haven't gone to my dentist yet. that was only the goodness. the bad news is our down payment is not 8700 like my classmates have spread over text but as i looked into my official registration form it turns out it was 8950, and the full payment was not 34800 but 35800. that's why my classmate tried to borrow some money to other classmates or their friends. luckily for me i have an extra money, and that extra money is for my dental cleaning, so i used that money in order for me to enrolled. further more i learned that our class starts is on 16 but but not 13. yeheay!!

after one and a half ours or two ours i am already enrolled and my friend and i went to the mall to stroll for a bit and have our lunch.

i am happy that my enrollment process runs swiftly.

Man?? Megan Fox is a man?

2009-06-05T14:39:00.000+08:00

when i was looking at my facebook account, i saw one of my friends update in titled "speechless". I said to my self that maybe it was just another prank. however, when i read the article, it states there that megan fox is a man.

it states there that megan fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox. When he/she was a child he/she (oh whatever, i will just adress Megan fox as she, since i've known her as a she) showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing. When she was 13 her parents decided to put her under the knife Unfortunately laws prohibit such surgery to be done to minors.

Though that does not stop Megan from working, she works non stop and been included on many Hottest Women lists in publications around the world.

http://weeklyworldnews.com/celebs/4783/megan-fox-is-a-man/

upset stomach

2009-06-05T12:52:00.000+08:00

if you had a cold sweat, feels like something is moving in your stomach and you are not comfortable with your self. then you are certified of having an upset stomach.

it sucks when your experiencing an upset stomach. It cause you so much trouble in taking a rest or even taking a good night sleep. It cost you how many hours of spending time in your comfort room instead of having fun in front of your tv set or in your computer. Even your appointments will be canceled because of this stupid upset stomach.

what are really the cause behind this unstoppable occurrence in our body? well, maybe of infection or simply because of indigestion. that simply put it. lets chew our food slowly so that it can be digested thoroughly and lets eat clean foods.

go away upset stomach!!